Flashback October 2009

While going through files and working on my website this morning I came across this. I wrote while beginning my blog Everything is Wenderul in 2009. Glad I came across it again today.

Monday, October 19, 2009

The Birth of Wenderful & the End of Fear

I have been contemplating starting this blog for quite some time now and today I realized that the only thing holding me back was FEAR. Fear of being laughed at, fear of no one reading it, fear of not being interesting enough, fear of having not written well enough, and fear of being judged and mocked. I could go on but as of now, I have redefined fear in my life. As of now, FEAR in my life stands for Fabulous Energy Always Reoccurring!

It is my hope that in sharing these thoughts, ideas and lessons learned that I can contribute to the larger force of positive energy in the world. I have released the fear and will begin this new journey in my life and share it with whoever chooses to read it. I have accepted that some days this blog may be long and on others just a few short words to promote positive energy in life. It will not be perfect, it will be real.

The Birth of Wenderful began with my long period of unemployment. For the first time in my adult life I’ve had to truly rely on someone else for basic needs to survive. Has this been easy and without challenge and conflict? HECK NO! It has been a journey of self discovery, facing challenges, and above all else, that there is something POSITIVE in every situation. Sometimes we just refuse to see it because it does not present itself in the way we expect.

What it has given me is the opportunity to really get to know myself. I have begun look outward as well as inward about the energies in my life and how I filter them. My creative and artistic side was in a coma for years before I lost my job, and now it’s back. That’s positive! I have learned that although at times it’s frustrating to have to depend on someone else that I can depend on them. That’s positive! I’ve learned to let go of negative energy, and accepted that sometimes it takes longer than I would like. I have learned that I cannot accept responsibility for others actions, only my own. I’ve come to understand that no matter what you do, say, think or feel, some people will always find the negative to try and make themselves feel better.

We all have to take responsibility and ownership of our actions and reactions in order to live a positive life. We have to remember that our actions do affect those we care about and admit that occasionally we are selfish, wrong, make mistakes and that even when we have the best of intentions we are all misunderstood at times. The best gift we can give ourselves and those we care about is to admit our flaws, apologize for our mistakes, accept the consequences and continue to go forward with a positive focus.

Most of all, I’ve learned that even on the darkest days, the sun still shines and that is always a place to begin positive

thoughts for the day.

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